so the last time i was on here was march! it just took me 5 minutes to figure out how to post! its all changed so much... Kinda like my life.  Since March i have been doing the subbing thing then during the summer i got a job at the mall which is pretty fun i guess, it helps pay the bills.  I didnt get a full time job for this year either so im subbing again . DANG its hard to fit almost a year into a paragraph that wont put people to sleep.  so im not even going to try. 

I really just wanted to let everyone know im still alive and i just took my teacher certification test for the state of Michigan and i PASSED ALL THREE!! now for the application process once again. 

Thanks for reading... and know that i still read posts when i get them emailed i just havent taken the time to log in

Hi All,
I just want to let you in on an opprotunity for saving lives.  I am participating in the Relay for Life on May 18.  If you arent fimiliar, RLF is a walk to raise money and awareness for cancer research, organized through the American Cancer Society.  The date was a big reason I decided to do the walk, May 18, 1994 my dad lost his fight with cancer.  Currently my Grandma is fighting her own fight so I am walking for her.  If you feel led to donate to my walk I would be very appreciateive.  Please visit my site i have set up and fill out the donation form.  All you need to do is enter an amount and fill out the credit card information, every little bit counts. 

http://www.acsevents.org/relay/mi/wyoming/misscamanda

I want to thank you all in advance!

(If you cant personally donate i completely understand but i would ask for your prayers for this event)

Love,
Amanda

why am i single? there are things i just don't understand.  photos are proof, i personally think i should be a model, what do you think?

YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle) Amaizzle

YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color and favorite animal) Purple Giraffe

YOUR SPY NAME: (middle name, and current street name) Jean Parkside

YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name and first 2 letters of mom's maiden name, first 3 letters of your hometown) Oakambegra

YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color, favorite drink) Purple coffee

YOUR ARABIC NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, any letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your mom's maiden name, 3rd letter of you dad's middle name, 1st letter of a sibling's first name, last letter of your mom's middle) Amknecmy

YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (your dad's middle name, and your favorite author's last name)
Richard Sparks

YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one your pets)
Black Freckles (oooh thats dark!)

Christmas is a time to be surrounded by people you love and yes, i have many people whom i love around me.  I couldnt ask for a better family! and i also have a family of wonderful people at school who i am so grateful to God that i got the opprotunity to meet and get to know them.  Yet i still feel alone.  There are many nights that i sit home alone knowing that people are going out and i feel if i am invited out that it is an afterthought and feeling sorry for me so a good deed they are doing in inviting me out.  I hate feeling this way but i have been feeling so alone lately.  It doesnt help that my time in 5th grade is almost up and my kids who i have fallen in love with are being so cruel to me.  It was so hard for me to get used to this class but we have had so much fun over the last few months but now im leaving and they dont know how to handle it.  The other teachers tell me they are being mean to me because they are fond of me and there are so many people in their lives who leave this is the only way they know how to deal with it.  I understand that but i am such a sensitive person and i am affected by harsh words and actions.  When someone says that they hate me and wish i was never around it hurts, it hurts alot. I just want to crawl into bed and pretend the world just doesnt exist!

I am not sure how many people read this but if you do could you please just pray for me.  Pray for strength to make it through this week, pray for my kids who live a really hard life, many of which will go without christmas this year, just pray that they find some joy in the break and even that someone comes into their lives who can share the story of Christ with them.  Also pray for my feelings of self pity, that they disappear,  i have the Lord and family and friends and i shouldnt be feeling this way, the devil is really taking hold of my emotions and it is not a good thing.

i love you all i hope you have a great holiday